
Okay. So I went to the drug dealer's yesterday. I prayed, as usual, that I would say what was needed in a way he would understand and that we would both be guided to the right treatments. I told him how my anxiety has improved drastically. I told him it's now a 3 instead of a 10. Then I told him that while the anxiety has moved to stage right, now my OCD has taken center stage. This is pretty normal, that once one illness is under control another pops up for attention. These illnesses are in the same vein and are contolled by the same brain chemical. Lack of Seretonin has always been my key issue. I don't sruggle too much with depression (I said, not
too much!) and thanks to my HORRIBLE Hulk incident I no longer have to convince myself that ADD is the reason for all my woes. See, I always thought I was forgetful, scatterbrained etc., etc., due to ADD. But it turns out my brain was always stuck in obsessive looping thoughts and it was also trying to deal with level ten anxiety all the time so I couldn't keep my thoughts/life together.
Okay, now that I have bored you with the mumbo jumbo... He's upping one of my meds to help it address the OCD. The same drugs treating my anxiety will treat the OCD just using higher dosages. Also, he still may put me on a touch of Ritalin to help me hone my thoughts and focus more although he nor I believe I have ADD. This drug and the like can be helpful to people even without ADD contrary to popular belief. P.S.-Ritalin is a much lighter stimualant than the stuff I was taking as the Hulk.
Finally! I'm seeing this process all the way through and it's paying off! I'm almost to the fine tuning stage! Then I should be on the perfect mix for my chemical brain makeup and all will be well til' the drug companies screw with stuff so they can become richer. Okay, that doom and gloom thinking is my level 3 anxiety talkin'!
Here's to mental wellness! It's worth the long, hard road! And it's much faster when you stay on that road no matter how bumpy it gets!